Awakening

"The reason people awaken
is because they have finally stopped agreeing to things
that insult their soul"

I find myself awakening again to the realization that things aren’t going as planned and its time to shift. This, incidentally, coincides with the major shift that is happening 12/21/12 as the ancients have predicted. The date is not about the world ending, it is about the world as we know it ending. For each of us this will take on a different and very personal meaning. For me it means a change in my educational plan.

I was beyond thrilled to be accepted at a university for the first time in my life at age 41. I had high hopes of being able to complete my bachelors degree in Theater/Film Studies after many years of working in those fields. However, the reality of this was not at all how I had imagined it. The school has been average at best, the classes un-enjoyable, and the major coursework not at all what I had hoped to be learning. I found out after starting my classes that I would not be able to achieve either my declared major or my life plan after obtaining a degree at this school. Bummer! I was instantly heartsick, unable to find joy in my classes or my time on campus. After stressing about it for many weeks I started to pay attention to what I was hearing around town. I met many people who felt the same way about this school in general. Not many people had good things to say. It wasn’t just me! Now the question became – what was I going to do about it?

Its easy to feel stuck in a situation like this. I could just suck it up and deal with going to a college I dislike that offers me no help in my field of choice, or I could drop-out altogether and give up. Neither of those choices would benefit me in any way. I chose door #3! I picked myself up and started shopping for a new school. It takes time to go through the application process, and then there are the changes in financial aid, and the higher costs of a more expensive university to consider… but in the end, do I get to accomplish my goal? Yes. If I make my life happen, instead of allowing life to happen to me, then yes, I can achieve any and every goal I set out to achieve.

I wrote the above at the beginning of Dec 2012. On the winter solstice, 12/21/12, I received the phone call informing me that I have been accepted to the private university I applied to.

Awaken to your full potential by throwing away anything that simply doesn’t feel right. Follow your bliss!

Namaste,
Kristen


Although the events in the book are personal, this isn't my story; it's our story. We've all been there: shamefully sucking-in our tummies to impress others, or using our sexuality to advance our careers because our intelligence or talent come second. Chapters from the book will be released in no chronological order, organically pouring out of me as emotions and memories resurface. Thank you for being here. —Kristen